One of those days...

today
was one of "those" days

the kind
where everything they do
grates on you somehow
even if they are doing it "right"
especially
if they are doing it "wrong"

it wasn't their fault
it was mine
my problem
me forgetting
how lucky i am
to have them

forgetting
for just a moment
that hundreds of thousands
of people in this world
wish their challenges
were as few and small as mine

instead
i was grouchy
tired
in pain
ill

trying so hard
to not be cranky
wanting instead to yell
at the top of my lungs
for everyone to just be quiet

for
just
ten
minutes

the irony of that
not lost on me at all

but at the same time,

craving the quiet
wanting their laughter
their beautiful, joyous laughter
to lift to the heavens

and kiss the ears
of angels

another blessing
on beautiful day

someone said that
motherhood is the hardest
job of all
but i disagree

anyone can be a mother

being a good one
is the hard part

tomorrow

a new day
a clean slate

tomorrow i will do better